khaosworks: (Who?)
khaosworks ([personal profile] khaosworks) wrote2005-11-01 01:26 am
Entry tags:

Stolen from filkerdave

I turned on anonymous posting, and turned off IP Address Logging. I want you to post anything that you want.

Anything.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.

Then, if you want: put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I greatly admire you and I like you a lot but I'm always a little jealous of your success. You deserve it, but I'm still jealous of it.

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
monkeys

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I have for some time suspected that a person I have long loved dearly has been taking advantage of me, spinning ever more elaborate webs of lies and deceits. I have no concrete proof, but much circumstantial evidence that appears to support my suspicions.

If I confront the person in question and I am wrong, it will hurt said person terribly, and permanently damage the relationship. If I say nothing and my suspicions are later confirmed, I am risking my own heart and, to a fair extent, my hard-won financial health.

What to do?

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I filch change off my boss's desk, sometimes to the tune of $5 per week!

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I slept with at 5 women at work, 2 of them during working hours.

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I think you're cute :)

Please ignore test of anonymous posting

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Test of anonymous posting

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
No matter how much I accomplish or how many skills I master, I still feel like a lump of clay that the sculptor has desultorily toyed with and then left to molder.

I'm never interesting, worldly or witty enough.

Paradoxically, I feel the same way about the people I meet. They're not good enough either.

Or if they are, I believe that they don't want me.

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Welllll ... as long as this doesn't evoke super-drama, there, in the long run ... have fun *g*

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I agree - I think he really is!

Every time when we happen to meet I think "gee, what a fun and intelligent guy", but I'm always too shy to just chat with you - all of a sudden I feel so dumb and inadequate and don't have words. I wish I were as witty as you.

Re: Please ignore test of anonymous posting

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Sadly, it doesn't work.

(Anonymous) 2005-10-31 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I think I'm in love with the wrong person.

(Anonymous) 2005-11-01 06:54 am (UTC)(link)
I've had a crush on you for absolute ages, but I've never been sure if you'd be comfortable with a long-distance secondary relationship with a married woman.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:45 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe it'll help if I tell you that I have other people whose success I'm jealous of? I really don't feel like a success. I have friends who are earning much more, have much more responsibilities, work harder, have wonderful families. I don't feel like a failure, sure, but I've a long way to go before I can feel, if ever, like a success. And sometimes, I'm not too sure I deserve it, too.

So, don't feel too guilty. We've all been there.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to hear this, and I'm not really sure what to say. However, if the evidence is enough to make someone else suspicious, it might be enough that the person will understand why the suspicions are there. On the other hand, this is not necessarily a rational situation.

It's tough. But falling in love means risk, and I have to keep telling myself that people do recover from heartbreak, because if I don't believe that, then I might as well slit my wrists. So perhaps in the end, you have to decide what would be more satisfying to you - living in uncertainty and dismissing those fears, or knowing, one way or the other, but risk losing it. A big hug is about all I can offer, either way.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
It's times like these I remember the immortal words of Alfred Hitchcock:\

"And to those of you in the audience who might be contemplating a life of crime... Don't - Get - Caught."

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:53 am (UTC)(link)
Brag, brag, brag. Come back when you've had sex with them while they're doing the photocopying.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
That's very flattering, but it's also somewhat disturbing that I scare people. I really don't intend to. Most of the time, I'm afraid that when I start cutting loose, I bore the shit out of them, because I don't know when to stop talking.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
I feel almost exactly the same way.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
Loving a person is only wrong if the person doesn't love you back.

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 09:57 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very flattered, but I've discovered through experience that the idea of polyamory doesn't work for me. I'm just not wired that way. However, that doesn't mean we can't flirt outrageously and let the supermarket tabloids gossip.

[identity profile] autographedcat.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 12:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't even agree with that. Love doesn't require reciprocation to be a good thing. It merely needs to be something that sustains and fulfils you emotionally and spiritually.

Besides, as Gordon Atkinson put it so well, "Love isn't something you feel. Love is something you do."

[identity profile] khaosworks.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 01:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps I should phrase it this way: Loving someone is only wrong if you stop loving yourself in the process.

[identity profile] autographedcat.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 01:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Ok, that I can wholeheartedly agree with.

[identity profile] syphilis.livejournal.com 2005-11-01 03:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow! Were they hot? Did you bend them over the xerox machine and let 'er rip?

(Anonymous) 2005-11-02 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah well. Now you'll just have to wonder. *wink*
gingicat: deep purple lilacs, some buds, some open (Joshua10 - Daddy love)

[personal profile] gingicat 2005-11-02 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Well said.

Unfortunately, I know too many people who don't love themselves anyway. I'm very glad I'm not one of them any more.

polyamory is overrated

(Anonymous) 2005-12-08 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
The polyamory folks I have met and know are pretty pathetic. Say what you want but polyamory clubs cruising at scifi conventions for new converts are just really creepy and phony. The is too much lying and disception in the name of polyamory going around for my personal honorable tastes. Most people I see in that lifestyle are just old hippies and lecherous sickos.